Better and Life Update
Sep. 3rd, 2008 08:52 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
amberfocusOkay, I went 24 hours without writing anything and I feel so much better. My little crisis of confidence has passed, thank goodness. I was pushing too hard to make something work that didn't quite and I've got to not do that, just let the words take me where and when they will and go with the flow of the storylines.
It's a bit like sculpting really, which I haven't done in years. Most people look at a block of clay and try to make it into something. Me, I always looked at a block of clay and took away what shouldn't be there and let the sculpture take care of itself. It always formed under my hands into something amazing, but I often didn't know what it was until it chose to reveal itself.
I think my writing is a lot like that. I have to let the stories write themselves. If I try to force them into something they're not, or something I don't quite feel, it just doesn't work. And though the words might look good on the page, might be properly constructed and even tell a story, they don't hold together and form the story I want to tell. Don't know if that makes sense to anyone else, but it's how I work.
On my bit of time off I watched two movies. Shallow Grave with Christopher Eccleston, which was creepy. He does creepy vey well. And I watched a silly, mindless fluffy thing called Mr. Destiny with James Belushi and Linda Hamilton from 1990. Gotta love Netflix.
DH called me yesterday to tell me his alternate has to have emergency gall bladder surgery and he has to cover for him. So instead of coming home on Thursday like he was supposed to he won't be home until Monday or Tuesday depending on flights. I'm less than thrilled. Oh, I know there's nothing he can do about it and it's not like the guy is losing his gall bladder on purpose, but I was looking forward to having DH home.
Plus he was supposed to finish installing the new shower/tub and surround this shift home and I don't know if that'll be possible to do in a week's time. I hope so. I hate not having a shower in my bathroom and sharing the kids' shower. I'll cope. I always do.
On the upside we'll have five days of extra pay this month and that's nothing to sneeze at.
It's a bit like sculpting really, which I haven't done in years. Most people look at a block of clay and try to make it into something. Me, I always looked at a block of clay and took away what shouldn't be there and let the sculpture take care of itself. It always formed under my hands into something amazing, but I often didn't know what it was until it chose to reveal itself.
I think my writing is a lot like that. I have to let the stories write themselves. If I try to force them into something they're not, or something I don't quite feel, it just doesn't work. And though the words might look good on the page, might be properly constructed and even tell a story, they don't hold together and form the story I want to tell. Don't know if that makes sense to anyone else, but it's how I work.
On my bit of time off I watched two movies. Shallow Grave with Christopher Eccleston, which was creepy. He does creepy vey well. And I watched a silly, mindless fluffy thing called Mr. Destiny with James Belushi and Linda Hamilton from 1990. Gotta love Netflix.
DH called me yesterday to tell me his alternate has to have emergency gall bladder surgery and he has to cover for him. So instead of coming home on Thursday like he was supposed to he won't be home until Monday or Tuesday depending on flights. I'm less than thrilled. Oh, I know there's nothing he can do about it and it's not like the guy is losing his gall bladder on purpose, but I was looking forward to having DH home.
Plus he was supposed to finish installing the new shower/tub and surround this shift home and I don't know if that'll be possible to do in a week's time. I hope so. I hate not having a shower in my bathroom and sharing the kids' shower. I'll cope. I always do.
On the upside we'll have five days of extra pay this month and that's nothing to sneeze at.
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