Better and Life Update

[amberfocus]

Okay, I went 24 hours without writing anything and I feel so much better. My little crisis of confidence has passed, thank goodness. I was pushing too hard to make something work that didn't quite and I've got to not do that, just let the words take me where and when they will and go with the flow of the storylines.

It's a bit like sculpting really, which I haven't done in years. Most people look at a block of clay and try to make it into something. Me, I always looked at a block of clay and took away what shouldn't be there and let the sculpture take care of itself. It always formed under my hands into something amazing, but I often didn't know what it was until it chose to reveal itself.

I think my writing is a lot like that. I have to let the stories write themselves. If I try to force them into something they're not, or something I don't quite feel, it just doesn't work. And though the words might look good on the page, might be properly constructed and even tell a story, they don't hold together and form the story I want to tell. Don't know if that makes sense to anyone else, but it's how I work.

On my bit of time off I watched two movies. Shallow Grave with Christopher Eccleston, which was creepy. He does creepy vey well. And I watched a silly, mindless fluffy thing called Mr. Destiny with James Belushi and Linda Hamilton from 1990. Gotta love Netflix.

DH called me yesterday to tell me his alternate has to have emergency gall bladder surgery and he has to cover for him. So instead of coming home on Thursday like he was supposed to he won't be home until Monday or Tuesday depending on flights. I'm less than thrilled. Oh, I know there's nothing he can do about it and it's not like the guy is losing his gall bladder on purpose, but I was looking forward to having DH home.

Plus he was supposed to finish installing the new shower/tub and surround this shift home and I don't know if that'll be possible to do in a week's time. I hope so. I hate not having a shower in my bathroom and sharing the kids' shower. I'll cope. I always do.

On the upside we'll have five days of extra pay this month and that's nothing to sneeze at.

Comments

[lady-dree.livejournal.com]

Glad you're feeling better! And also glad you enjoyed Shallow Grave- it's been one of my favorite movies for over a decade, and it's what first made me go all swoony over Christopher Eccleston. *hugs*

[amberfocus.livejournal.com]

Thanks. I thought he was kind of geeky in it. Not used to seeing him geeky, but then he takes off the glasses and Rowr! Wowzer, baby!

[crimedoc1.livejournal.com]

So glad to hear you are feeling better about your writing. Because you are such a terrific writer, you know.

Sorry your husband has to work a longer shift; that's never fun when business trips or shift work are extended unexpectedly. Although extra $$ in the paycheck never hurts! And he can install tubs and showers? Wow! Can you send him over here? We're having our kitchen redone right now. The bathrooms could SO use some work as well, but we can't afford both - I'm a pretty good cook if he wants to work for excellent food! Not to mention getting to visit hurricane central! ;-)

[amberfocus.livejournal.com]

Thank you. I just let myself get a little burnt out.

Well, he's not a professional, but he does all right being handy around the house. *grins*

[dragonmom64.livejournal.com]

Ah yes....Shallow Grave. It was the first thing I'd seen CE in other than Who...and yes, he was creepy! But I remember his so-called friends kind of drove him over the edge...
He is also quite creepy in 28 Days Later....have you seen that? I made the mistake of watching it late at night...glad hubby was with me!

[amberfocus.livejournal.com]

Yeah, 28 Days Later is the first thing I saw him in. I didn't actually recognize him as the same man when I started watching New Who. I had to go back and rewatch it just to be sure. It was frightening because he just seemed so normal and then did what he did...

[amyo67.livejournal.com]

I am so glad you're feeling better. I'm sorry to hear about DH though.
Did anyone see Second Coming? CE was good in that too, although his character did get a little creepy toward the end.

[tardismate.livejournal.com]

I loved Second Coming, he was a little creepy, but still gorgeous!
Speaking of gorgeous, that icon of yours has just about made me spontaneously combust!! Just how sexy is that beautiful face...those eyes...Mmmmm *runs off for cold shower - or to find other half...*

[doctorsdiva.livejournal.com]

Love your icon. I'm not usually a CE admirer but he looks really hot.

[amberfocus.livejournal.com]

Oh, my that is the most beautiful icon of CE I have ever seen. I want! I've seen Second Coming. It was really good. Totally sacriligous, but very thought provoking and interesting and he was amazing in it.

[tookieknits.livejournal.com]

Glad you're feeling better!
I love Shallow Grave! CE being creepy paranoid guy...Ewan in a dressing gown and y-fronts...mmmmmmm
Sorry, what was I saying?

[amberfocus.livejournal.com]

Thank you. Yeah, Ewan doesn't do it for me, but oh, that scene with CE and the girl, where he's touching her mouth. Oooo. *shivers* Now that was something.

[tardismate.livejournal.com]

'I have to let the stories write themselves. If I try to force them into something they're not, or something I don't quite feel, it just doesn't work. And though the words might look good on the page, might be properly constructed and even tell a story, they don't hold together and form the story I want to tell.'

I know exactly what you mean, I'm having exactly that trouble at the moment with A Human Angle. I know what I want to say and have the characters do, it just doesn't want to be that way. I'll take a leaf out of your book and just let what happens, happen.

Sorry you're missing your other half...I'm missing mine too. He's currently on tour with his band, and we only get to see each other at weekends, because of my job and his tour dates. :(

[amberfocus.livejournal.com]

Oh, I'm sorry. Isn't that frustrating? Well, both things actually.