Just Venting a Bit

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I feel so...I don't know, right now.  Disembodied?  Detached?  It's hard to find the words.  I just...gah, don't know.  I have my third doctor's visit tomorrow for my knee.  I am still in so much pain it's ridiculous.  I'm not writing.  I'm barely reading and even then, it's like, review?  What review?  I'm supposed to leave comments.  I think that's what I used to do.  *sighs*  It makes me feel bad not to be...enthusiastic in fandom.  And I'm missing reading so many good things but I can't concentrate.  I hate being at a loss for words.  Words are my friend and suddenly they're just gone.

I had a flat tire on Thursday night on the way home and I couldn't change it because I can't get down on my knee.  I'd gone in to see the doctor and do much needed grocery shopping (thank heavens for in store scooters!)  Not just a flat tire.  A shredded tire.  This was not fun.  Mom was out of town.  Chris was in Alaska.  FIL was not answering the phone.  Oh, yes, I have AAA.  It only takes them an hour to show up.  I have a trunk full of groceries and two children.  So the kids and I had to move everything out of the trunk into the front passenger seat because the tire is under the floor mat.  There was not really enough room in the front passenger seat but we did it anyway.  I'm on my cane.  Rose is sick with a cold.  Tobias is 9.  It wasn't much fun.  Oh, and I had to go to the bathroom.  Really badly.  Just to make it more fun.  And there were no trees, no bushes, no tall grass, nada.  Not even a house close enough for me to walk to with my knee like it was and beg mercy and bathroom facilities.

We were in a brightly lit area, though I had to drive a bit on the rim to get there.  Some of the rubber melted.  It was scary.  But we ended up right in front of the kennels about ten miles outside of town.  So it was a safe place to break down.  Lots of traffic on the highway but I was able to get well off.  I was shocked at how many people didn't stop to offer help, though.  One young man did, but AAA finally showed up as he was starting to change the tire.  If I remember I'll take a photo of the tire tomorrow and post it.  It's really a sight.  I don't know how we didn't spin out.

Anyway, I haven't driven the car anywhere since we came home on the spare.  The brake light came on on the way home.  Tomorrow I am taking it in to Midas to have the brakes checked, then taking it across the street to Les Schwab to get two new tires (the good front one will become the spare as I don't want just a donut wheel as backup).  Then I go to the doctor and he's going to let me get an MRI, I think.  And T has dance lessons.  This is far too much for me to be doing right now, but I don't have a choice.  Plus I have to get milk.  I am feeling a bit put upon.  I know there are worse things.  Some of you are even going through worse things.  But it's late and I'm in pain and I can't sleep and I'm feeling sorry for myself so I'm whining here.

Mom offered to do lessons with T tomorrow.  Thank goodness for that.  I don't know how I would have done that on top of everything else.  Probably skipped the day and done lessons on Saturday instead.  At least Rose can pretty much take care of herself on that score.

 

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*hugs* everyone else already said it better than I could.