Just Venting a Bit

[amberfocus]

I feel so...I don't know, right now.  Disembodied?  Detached?  It's hard to find the words.  I just...gah, don't know.  I have my third doctor's visit tomorrow for my knee.  I am still in so much pain it's ridiculous.  I'm not writing.  I'm barely reading and even then, it's like, review?  What review?  I'm supposed to leave comments.  I think that's what I used to do.  *sighs*  It makes me feel bad not to be...enthusiastic in fandom.  And I'm missing reading so many good things but I can't concentrate.  I hate being at a loss for words.  Words are my friend and suddenly they're just gone.

I had a flat tire on Thursday night on the way home and I couldn't change it because I can't get down on my knee.  I'd gone in to see the doctor and do much needed grocery shopping (thank heavens for in store scooters!)  Not just a flat tire.  A shredded tire.  This was not fun.  Mom was out of town.  Chris was in Alaska.  FIL was not answering the phone.  Oh, yes, I have AAA.  It only takes them an hour to show up.  I have a trunk full of groceries and two children.  So the kids and I had to move everything out of the trunk into the front passenger seat because the tire is under the floor mat.  There was not really enough room in the front passenger seat but we did it anyway.  I'm on my cane.  Rose is sick with a cold.  Tobias is 9.  It wasn't much fun.  Oh, and I had to go to the bathroom.  Really badly.  Just to make it more fun.  And there were no trees, no bushes, no tall grass, nada.  Not even a house close enough for me to walk to with my knee like it was and beg mercy and bathroom facilities.

We were in a brightly lit area, though I had to drive a bit on the rim to get there.  Some of the rubber melted.  It was scary.  But we ended up right in front of the kennels about ten miles outside of town.  So it was a safe place to break down.  Lots of traffic on the highway but I was able to get well off.  I was shocked at how many people didn't stop to offer help, though.  One young man did, but AAA finally showed up as he was starting to change the tire.  If I remember I'll take a photo of the tire tomorrow and post it.  It's really a sight.  I don't know how we didn't spin out.

Anyway, I haven't driven the car anywhere since we came home on the spare.  The brake light came on on the way home.  Tomorrow I am taking it in to Midas to have the brakes checked, then taking it across the street to Les Schwab to get two new tires (the good front one will become the spare as I don't want just a donut wheel as backup).  Then I go to the doctor and he's going to let me get an MRI, I think.  And T has dance lessons.  This is far too much for me to be doing right now, but I don't have a choice.  Plus I have to get milk.  I am feeling a bit put upon.  I know there are worse things.  Some of you are even going through worse things.  But it's late and I'm in pain and I can't sleep and I'm feeling sorry for myself so I'm whining here.

Mom offered to do lessons with T tomorrow.  Thank goodness for that.  I don't know how I would have done that on top of everything else.  Probably skipped the day and done lessons on Saturday instead.  At least Rose can pretty much take care of herself on that score.

 

Comments

[fishface44.livejournal.com]

*hugs you* I am so sorry!!!

[yavie-namarie.livejournal.com]

Gah. 0_o
I think you've earned the right to have a bit of a whinge, dearie. Goodness knows if I had all of that going on, I'd probably go spare if I couldn't vent at least a little bit..
*hugs* I hope things start to look up, and you can get that knee taken care of soon!

[solarflar3.livejournal.com]

((((((((((hugs))))))))))))

Keep the knee moving but don't put weight on it.

Life just decides to shite on you from a great height sometimes, rant away sweetie.

[absolutbritish.livejournal.com]

awwh. I really hope you'll feel better soon!

[honorh.livejournal.com]

I completely get where you're coming from. I had a bout of sciatica a couple of years back that was . . . yeah. When you're in that much pain, honestly? It's like being depressed. You can't find the fun or pleasure in anything else because the pain keeps dragging your attention back to it.

Take care of yourself, and I hope your doctor is able to do something about the pain. Or at least give you good enough drugs that you don't care!

[magali29.livejournal.com]

Welcome to the world of people who had an horrible year. 2009 sucks big time! It's normal to be down, or angry and to not even want to go on the net to read fics, or answer reviews. Real life has a way of doing bad things to you and some years more than others (I should know, I lost my job in january, had a sprained knee with ligaments problems the same month and I fractured my elbow while on vacation in august!).

Apart from waiting for real life to give you a respite, there's nothing else to do. Just take care of yourself, that's all. Once you'll be better, less suffering, you'll be much all right in your mind and in your heart. It's just... a bad moment right now.

Good luck.

[mkejenkins.livejournal.com]

Oh sweetie...I'm so sorry. Try to do everything you can to get the proper rest for that knee.

Life really does stink sometime but if venting to your friends helps then you go right ahead. I know from experience that sometimes it helps just to get it out of your system and we don't mind one bit. Concentrate on getting better.

Wish I could do more then just offer moral support. At least I can do this...anytime you need a shoulder to cry on or vent on...I'm here.

[kholly.livejournal.com]

Wow, when it rains it pours.

But don't think of the fic you're missing. Think of all the great reading that'll be waiting for you when you're ready to get back to it. It's not going anywhere. It'll keep better than the milk in your trunk while you wait for AAA.

Good luck with everything.

[amyo67.livejournal.com]

*hugs you* I'm so sorry, sweetie.

Don't worry about the venting. That's what friends are for. I am just glad you didn't end up in a spin out or something.

I'm always here if you need a shoulder to cry on or someone to talk to.

[teikachikata.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry that things are not going well right now. But things will look up for you. Feel free to vent all you like. That's what we're here for.

[doctorsdiva.livejournal.com]

I too wish there was something more I could do than just a few lines of text here. Please just take care of yourself accept any help that is offered and do exactly as the doctor tells you. (Yes, I did have to go back and take the capital letter out LOL), and as kholly says all that fic will still be waiting for you when you feel like reading it.

We are missing you and your wonderful stories but more than anything we want you to get well.

*hugedivahugs*

[shinyopals.livejournal.com]

*HUGS for you*

[catyuy.livejournal.com]

*hugs* everyone else already said it better than I could.

[doctor10-crazt.livejournal.com]

Aw, I'm so sorry, sweetheart! I wish there was something more I could do then just offer my sympathies.

*hugs tightly*

[angelab85.livejournal.com]

*Hugs*

You might check and see if a grocery store near you has delivery or online ordering and pickup. I'd check for you as I know the pain does your brain in, but I don't know your zip code.

[pncwho.livejournal.com]

Wow, life's just like a rose garden sometimes; one blooming thing after another!

Hope tomorrow is better for you. Wishing you a speedy and thorough healing!

[crimedoc1.livejournal.com]

*sigh* Is there anyone out there for whom 2009 is a GOOD year? I'm so sorry - and a flat tire. Just what you need on top of everything else. BTW, if you tell them that you are (a) female, (b) disabled, (c) have young kids in the car, and (d) do not feel safe where you are, most Triple-As will bump you to the head of the list and get someone out to you sooner (speaking from experience - the time I broke down on a Sat night at the single most dangerous high-crime intersection in Minneapolis!)

*hugs*

Maybe some of your friends could do some of the grocery shopping and other errands for you for a while? Or maybe one of Tobias' classmate's parents could take him to dance for you tomorrow, so you can stay home and STAY OFF YOUR KNEE!!!

Also, please, please, PLEASE seriously look into using crutches instead of a cane so you can get around w/o putting any weight at all on your knee.

And please do not apologize for feeling bad and venting a bit. Yeah maybe a hurt knee is not the absolute worst thing in the universe, but the pain can be pretty bad, and you're all alone there with the kids, and ... yeah, you deserve to complain. We are all here to sympathize. I just wish I could come over there and go pick up the milk and take Tobias to dance class for you.

[honorh.livejournal.com]

Almost hate to admit it here, but yeah, 2009's been a pretty great year for me. Damn sight better than 2000-2007, at least. 2008 was fairly okay, though. We all have our years, don't we?

[ageless-aislynn.livejournal.com]

Oh sweetie, I'm just so sorry about all of that! Like they say, when it rains, it pours, doesn't it? :( I'm the world's worst for getting shut down when life begins to stress me so I know just how that is when you really need that escape into something fun and it just vanishes on you. :(

Anyway, I'm glad that it wasn't any worse (such as causing a spin out) but am just so sorry that you had to add a flat tire on top of all of the rest of that. Take care of yourself as much as you possibly can and here's hoping and praying that everything will be much better very, very soon! *hugs you* ♥♥♥

Sorry for bad day

[doctor9rokz.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry for your bad day. I hope that everything gets better for you!!