Fic Update and Knee Update

[amberfocus]

I'm trying to write possessive Nine/Rose smut for the last chapter of Temptation, but I think the Vicodin is interfering. *sighs*  They're getting shmoopy instead.  Shmoopy and seriously...well, I'm not using this icon for nothing.  Just...bad.  Maybe I just need to turn on a dime and make it sweetly romantic, but not shmoopy.  So I've tried working on other stuff to get me out of this haze.  Been working a bit on Hunger Moon, been working a bit on A Sky Without Stars, been working a bit on a new one that seems to be skirting perilously close to OT3 (Nine, Rose, Jack) which I don't really even like most of the time, though there are a few authors I will read it from.  Did a couple of paragraphs on You're What?  Did a couple paragraphs on Of the Vortex Born.  Worked a little on Chaste Moon, the sequel to Hunger Moon which isn't even done yet. Wrote three paragraphs on Brick Walls.  *sighs*  Gee, I'm beginning to see that my problem is I have no attention span on narcotics.

I went to the Doctor yesterday and I am going back tomorrow.  He drained a bunch of fluid from the space beneath my knee and then shot it full of cortizone and did an ultrasonic treatment.  I hate, hate, hate cortizone injections.  I am not a fan of steroids to begin with but it was just hurting so much I gave in.  He was hoping there would be some improvement but there really hasn't been.  When I go in tomorrow, he said if it was still just as bad he would send me for an MRI.  He was hoping it was just a bad sprain followed by extreme overuse causing a huge amount of swelling, but he was suspecting an ACL tear.  That's a ligament in the knee joint.  I hate this.  It seriously is vicious pain.  I thought it was bad when I hurt my hand and wrist so badly earlier this year, but I tell you, that has nothing on this.  You don't have to walk on your hands and you can type with only one if you're motivated enough.  You need your legs for everything.  And it seems like the Vicodin doesn't even touch it.  I seriously want morphine.  I had it after my hysterectomy for a week and it was bliss.  I could do with some serious absence of pain right now.

I don't like walking with a cane.  It makes me feel old.  I'm only 39.  I want to go for walks with the kids and ride bikes while the weather is still marginally good and I can't.  I feel helpless and useless.  I have to cook meals at the stove sitting down in a chair.  I can barely stand long enough to do the dishes (into the dishwasher).  Rose has taken over the laundry completely.  And Chris won't be back home for another 14 days.  Okay, end whine.
 

Comments

[catyuy.livejournal.com]

Sounds like a bunch of not fun times with the pain.
Here's to hoping it clears up soon.

[fishface44.livejournal.com]

*hands you ice bag* How awful!!!

On the other hand...new paragraphs for Vortex! Yay!

But seriously: knee pain! No fun! (And maybe use the cane to threaten people who annoy you? Or get the kind with a sword in it?)

[amyo67.livejournal.com]

OH, sweetie, I'm so sorry. *hugs you*

It would appear that your attention span while on the vicodin is indeed that of a toddler. LOL.

*send you hugs, ice for your knee, and cookies*

[jessalrynn.livejournal.com]

Oh good Lord! I'm so sorry! Pain and being made to feel old at once... argh! I agree with the recommendation of the cane with the sword in it. Makes you feel like you've got a secret, which may help.

Yeah - attention span issues are familiar friends here, obviously. *grins* But you really do have a lot of irons in that fire - they're very hard to juggle, hot bits of metal, I mean!

Glad to hear you're working on Hunger Moon, sorry to hear it is painful for you to work on Hunger Moon and everything else. If it's helping distract, though, I'm glad.

Hope you feel better soon. *hugs*

[editrx.livejournal.com]

ACL tears, never mind just knee problems in general, are No Fun. *hugs*

(And boy do I understand about no concentration while on Vicodin. And unable to do chores. :( )

[magali29.livejournal.com]

I'm really sorry for you. Right now, you are really handicapped because you have to use a cane and it can be worse if you use crutches. It means that your whole body has to compensate so you use your arms and your remaining leg. It's painful. And I don't want to scare you but you'll probably have physical therapy after. Ouch. I had a bad fall in january, sprained knee, ligaments and months of therapy. No fun at all.

[wiggiemomsi.livejournal.com]

*Offers hugs and cookies!*

[melnay13.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry! *hugs*

[patsy1665.livejournal.com]

Pain isn't any fun. I'm sorry to hear about your knee. I love your stories and hope you can get some good pain meds that allow you to think clearly. Is that an oxymoron? Anyway, I'm a double amputee, and I walk with a cane. It comes in handy, obnoxious people, smack'em with the cane. ;)

Feel better soon.

[yavie-namarie.livejournal.com]

Gah. I was hoping it wasn't an ACL tear... Mine got totally blasted to oblivion just before my freshman year of college, and I wouldn't wish that on anyone. One thing that might help is to go on crutches. That will allow you to get your weight completely off the bad knee, which might help with the pain. And in the vein of patsy1665's post, it gives you two weapons with which to keep people in line... ;P
I hope and pray you feel better soon! *hugs*

[crimedoc1.livejournal.com]

Oooooh, I'm so sorry you are going through this. Although you sound like the energizer bunny on vicodin. :-) You know, crutches (I'd recommend wrist crutches - shorter = lighter!) might actually be better - you'd get all the weight off your knee so it might hurt less. And I find them very useful for pushing lift buttons from a distance and for threatening annoying students! :-)

Don't think that you're getting old because you have to TEMPORARILY use a cane or crutches. Really. You're not! I began using a cane at 18 - I wasn't old! (I'm still not old - although I am older than you!)

Repeat after me... I am not old. I am not old. I am gorgeous and terrific and amazing. (Keep repeating... go on....) :-)

*huggies*

[othermewriter.livejournal.com]

ooo splendid idea's those wish someone had told me that when I was hopping around. Takes up mantra "I'm not old..." to keep you company.

*huggles*

[othermewriter.livejournal.com]

I seriously hope you haven't damaged your ACL. I snapped mine and had no medical and it was a good 4 mo before I could manage without a cane (longer without painkillers). Some are lucky enough (or stubborn enough) to live without one, but it isn't a pretty rehab and has lasting consequences if not repaired. I have a brutal workout schedule I have to keep in order to maintain as I have neither it or the inner miniscus disk on my right knee, the latter being a casualty to the first injury not being fixed. Someday I won't be able to avoid it any longer and will have to have major surgery to have them both repaired, until then... *shrugs*

Feel better soon you have my complete sympathies!

[spooferkd.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry that you are hurting and feeling so limited. Just take it easy for a while. Lay out in the sun and soak it up, like you're on a cruise. When my knee was messed up for a while and had to use a cane, I tried to remember the romance novels that had swords hidden in the canes, or alcohol hidden in the ball of a cane. One day, I had to travel with my boss and a business colleague that I'd just met. We were going in my boss's 'jeep-like' vehicle which was tall. I was trying to figure out how I could hop up to get in, and when I saw the rack on the top of the vehicle, I just hooked my cane on it and swung up and inside. The guys just stood there, busting up over my 'Tarzan' move, while I basked in my victory. Life might slow you down, but it won't stop you. May you soon have uplifting experiences of your own and heal very fast. I'll keep you in my prayers.