Brain's a Bit Out of Sync

[amberfocus]

I'm having one of those days where it's particularly hard to focus on any one thing.  That's led to a lot of little bits and pieces of writing but no real focus on any one piece.  Well, maybe some.  I've got 1005 words down on the next chapter of Hunger Moon.  And Rose and alt!Nine have actually gotten out of hte bedroom.  Geesh, I didn't think those two were ever going to do that, they've both been so reluctant to move out of each other's arms long enough to get anything done.  But now things are lining up for action again.  No, not that kind of action.  Action/adventure.  Yes, the plot's back.  Got buried under the love making for a bit, but it's back now.  So our intrepid Torchwood team is on it's way to...Cardiff.  Yep, Cardiff.  And no, no Captain Jack will be found.  But there is a Tosh on the horizon.  And a Ianto.

I also wrote 1002 words on a Ten/Rose Moments in Darkness piece.  The funny thing is it felt like I was writing a post-JE fic.  It could easily be a post JE fic.  At this point, if I didn't say it was season 2 AU, and you were just to read it blindly, I think your mind would go to Ten2/Rose.  But the things she's dealing with here, the changes and feelings of betrayal are very, very similar to how she might feel post-JE.  Lots of dealing with the post-regeneration trauma.

MiD is all very random at the moment.  This particular story, Acceptance, takes place after GitF.  I know, I haven't finished any of the other ones, not even Guilt, the first one in the Ten line, but this plot bunny just clamped on to my ankle and wouldn't let go and then kind of petered out after 1000 words.  *sighs* *sighs again, louder*

I spent yesterday rereading all 52,000 odd words of what I've written so far on Hunger Moon.  I did find the voice for it again, but don't know if ch. 21 will be finished today.  Depends on how stubborn this little pause is going to be.  Maybe I just need a nap.  Or some caffeine.  Something to unfuzz my brain.  Often times whining about it alone is enough.  Hope it will be this time.

I'm having a really hard time writing angst right now.  I just want to write happy/happy fic.  MiD is the first time I've gotten close to angsty in weeks.  Okay, well, there was a bit of angst at the start of Treading Water, but I knew it was going to be fleeting and end up happy/happy so I'm not counting it.  But it's been weeks since I've done gut-wrenching.  Since Sacrifice, really.  I kind of miss it, writing angst.  But then I think of how much smiling I've been doing lately when writing fic and the feeling kind of goes away.

Sorry, this is a terribly disjointed entry.  As I said, fuzzy brain out of sync.
 

Comments

[amyo67.livejournal.com]

It's ok. Your brain will resync at some point. Hope all is well in your world today. If you need to bounce ideas let me know, I am in all evening. WooHOo.

[amberfocus.livejournal.com]

Yeah. It's just taking a bit of time. And thanks. Chatting with you really helped.

[fishface44.livejournal.com]

Maybe you are a not-so-secretly basically happy person who now & then enjoys a little angst? After all, you write great humor too!

Glad you are smiling so much! :)

[amberfocus.livejournal.com]

Pretty much, yeah. *laughs* Thank you.