Eleventh Hour

[amberfocus]

Title:  Eleventh Hour
Author:  Amberfocus
Characters:  Ten, implied Rose
Genre:  Drabble, Angst
Rating: G
Summary:  He's just so tired.

 

He hadn’t meant to burn through this body so quickly, but he’s tired now. He’s tired of being the one everyone depends on, being the universe’s savior, of never quite feeling like he’s really won. Mostly though, he’s tired of just getting by. That’s what he’s been doing these last many years, just getting by. He knows that she’s happy, knows that he made the right decision for her, but the wrong one for him. He’s tired of living without Rose. This time when he regenerates he’ll do it without her in his head and maybe then he’ll find peace.

 

Comments

[apurplepatch.livejournal.com]

From the end of the first sentence I read this fic with my hands over my mouth just... pained for him.

Poor Ten. Poor broken Ten. When put this way I almost look forward to Eleven. Because at least when Nine regenerated he still had Rose - and Rose made everything better.

Once again you amaze with the utter gut wrench you can fit into so few words - it hurts, but it hurts so good.

[amberfocus.livejournal.com]

Thank you. I was in full on angst-mode when I wrote this. He's lost everything. His world, his people, his Rose. Even Donna, who helped make his darkness brighter. He's got to be so tired of loss now.

[tardismate.livejournal.com]

Oh...just....Oh! *sniffles*

My poor Ten...so hurt, so alone, so lonely. *hugs him and brings cookies and a kitten*

Those last two lines had me bawling like a baby.

Angst, you are indeed a hard master.

So few words to convey so much hurt.

Magnificent, love - that is our Ten perfectly captured.

[amberfocus.livejournal.com]

Yeah, it made me very sad, too. But at least I'm writing something, right? Thank you.

[mkejenkins.livejournal.com]

Oh my....*sniffles*

Just...guh

That is so amazing. You have captured Ten perfectly.

[amberfocus.livejournal.com]

Thank you. *hands over tissues*

[melnay13.livejournal.com]

*sniffles*

Poor guy!

[amberfocus.livejournal.com]

He's all alone! *angsts*

[amyo67.livejournal.com]

Poor Ten. This is just beautiful

[amberfocus.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

[wishiknewwho.livejournal.com]

Oh, this made me so sad. But the angst is so good. And part of me wants him to hang on to her forever, but another part of me knows that it can't be good for him. Beautiful little story--you conveyed a lot in a few sentences.

[amberfocus.livejournal.com]

Thank you. I know it's sad, but I do hope it's possible for him to get over her. Although lately my own personal canon has turned to shinyopals Fourteen'verse. It makes it all okay for everyone eventually and that is what I want.

[silencing.livejournal.com]

This is...absolutely heartbreaking. I just want to cuddle Ten until the pain stops.

Great job, it's ridiculous how you can convey such a strong emotion and scene in so few words.

[amberfocus.livejournal.com]

Me, too. *pets poor Ten* Thank you.

I like your angst icon.

[silencing.livejournal.com]

Thanks, I thought it only appropriate, and a bit past midly amusing

[wildwinterwitch.livejournal.com]

he made the right decision for her, but the wrong one for him

That's so very true. Heartbreaking.

[amberfocus.livejournal.com]

Yes, and I think in the end, it probably was the only decision he could make but he lost so much in doing it. Thank you.

[amberfocus.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much. It is heartbreaking. I was in that sort of mood.

[maniacalshen.livejournal.com]

Yes. SO the wrong one for Ten and Rose. >_< But if he has to stay alone, maybe being 11 will be better for him. :(

[amberfocus.livejournal.com]

I hope being Eleven will be better for him. I would like to see the Doctor with joy in life again.

[crimedoc1.livejournal.com]

*sniff*

*huggles Ten*

[amberfocus.livejournal.com]

He definitely needs the hugs.

[salimali.livejournal.com]

*sniff*

:-(

so sad

[amberfocus.livejournal.com]

*hands you a tissue*

[mitashade.livejournal.com]

I have a mental image of his face. *sniffles*

Poor Ten.

[amberfocus.livejournal.com]

It is a sad face, isn't it? *hugs Ten*

[angel932.livejournal.com]

*is sad*

[amberfocus.livejournal.com]

(((HUGS)))

[bananasandroses.livejournal.com]

Ouch, ouch and a side-helping of ouch for good measure.

I love Ten, but I do so hope regeneration will bring him some kind of peace – even if it means forgetting her.

[amberfocus.livejournal.com]

Yes, I think I may have out-angsted you on this one. I do want him to find peace, too. I don't want him to forget Rose, but I'd like him to be able to put her away in a nice safe place in his memories.

[bananasandroses.livejournal.com]

I’ve just re-read this a second time and it has me in tears, just as it did the first time. Brava.

(I’m going to put this in memories, so maybe later when I feel happier again I can read it and not want to weep for the poor man. Although given that it’s, what, eight months since Journey’s End aired and I still can’t bear to watch this show, I doubt that’s gonna happen any time soon.)

**hugs Ten tight**

[wiggiemomsi.livejournal.com]

*Sniffle*

[amberfocus.livejournal.com]

(((HUGS)))

[ehmi.livejournal.com]

*pouts*

[amberfocus.livejournal.com]

I know.

[qtrhorserider.livejournal.com]

Beautifully bittersweet. Glad you're feeling well enough to write.

[amberfocus.livejournal.com]

Thank you. Me, too. It's starting to come back to me now.

[morningroses.livejournal.com]

You know I feel bad for ten I really do but at the end of the day he was the one who said it didn't need saying and he was the one who left her on that beach so it's his fault if he's lonely, no one else.

[amberfocus.livejournal.com]

Yes, he is and I think that he's willing to live with his choices. I just don't think he ever thought it would be this hard to lose her again. He was stupid.

[heather916.livejournal.com]

Did you write this after re-watching The Next Doctor? Because his "they break my heart" line at the end of that eppy made me feel just so many of the things that this little ficlet mentions.

Our poor broken - yet still sexy - Ten. This is our post-S4 Ten in a nutshell. So sad, yet so beautiful.

And, hey! Look at you writing again! :)

[amberfocus.livejournal.com]

*is guilty* Should not watch things that make me angst, but then I'd have to not watch most of Doctor Who, hmm?

Thank you.

[tardisblue.livejournal.com]

Poor Ten:(
You wrote his weariness with everything so well. I do hope that when he does regenerate that somehow he will heal.
*hugs Ten*

[amberfocus.livejournal.com]

I hope so, too. And I want him to be able to have joy in life again and roaring good adventures. *grins*

[51stcenturyfox.livejournal.com]

Ouch. And sad. Well done.

[doctor10-crazt.livejournal.com]

You, my friend, are cruel. I just....ouch.

[lucyd3.livejournal.com]

*sniffles* Someone commented elsewhere a while back that the coming regeneration was the right time for the Doctor, though many of us don't want David ever to go. This piece sums up perfectly how tired and lonely and sad he must be feeling. Beautiful!

[dragonmom64.livejournal.com]

*wibbles*

OW! Poor Ten...you've captured how he must feel at the end of Journey's End...standing there, in the pouring rain.....

*runs off, bawling*