Forward Steps Musings

[amberfocus]

So just musing aloud so I don't forget.  I've been working on Sacrifice but now I'm thinking maybe of changing the name.  I'm not sure.  I'd almost like to keep with the fire theme I've got going with Rekindle and Inflame.  Of course Defunct won't fall into that category at all, but eh, that's okay.  So I'm thinking maybe instead of calling the first story in the Forward Steps Along the Path series Sacrifice, I'll call it Incinerate.  Which means reduce to ashes.  Yeah, bit more bitter there than Sacrifice.  Hmm...is it still too soon for me to be working on an end of Journey's End fic?  Still a little too upset with original!Ten, maybe?  Then again, the fire theme may be best to go with the stories after Ten2 wakes up from his funk.

Also considering what the next story to follow Inflame in the series should be called.  I'm thinking Glow or Firelight, with later possible stories to be called Blaze, Inferno, and of course Spark.  Inferno will be honeymoon smut!fic.  Spark will be pregnancy!fic.  And I could always use Incinerate for something horrible and angsty that goes wrong in their relationship.  Hush, now, if I do I'll fix, you know that.

The more I live with Ten2/Rose the better I feel about this pairing.  Still not happy with Ten.  Still not happy with RTD.

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It still hurts

[sunnytyler001.livejournal.com]

"The more I live with Ten2/Rose the better I feel about this pairing. Still not happy with Ten. Still not happy with RTD."
Oh, I SO agree... I'm trying to find good reasons for the Doctor to leave Rose in the Alt!World. Sort of, Doomsday hurt less, because it was not his choice. In Journey's end, he leaves her willingly. That's a huge difference and as a shipper, that's painful.
However, I remember that in Doomsday too, he wanted her to go to the parralel world, with Jackie. I always thought her little speech "I took my decision a long time ago, and I'm never gonna leave you" had opened his eyes, made him change his mind... I though that, even if he knew it was impossible, in a way, he believed too in "forever", as he had told the Devil he believed in Rose.
Obviously, I was wrong.
The worst in this story is that I think he still loves her. He's just playing the noble white knight, sacrifying his love for her hapiness.
It's Lancelot giving Guenievre back to Arthur. Stuff of legends are brilliant but everything has its time, and now, it's time to go back to (the Alt!) reality.
He truly believes she'll be happier with a human than with a Time Lord. That all she wants are domesticty and wedding and children. I wonder if he ever really KNEW Rose Tyler. And it looks like he totally forgot about Bad wolf. He just saw it everywhere two episodes ago, but now, he just ignores what this could mean about Rose.
And well, he must be right, as Moffat won't bring Rose back.
I'll be honest with you. Since "Journey's end", I can read fics with Nine & Rose, Eight & Rose, Five & Rose, any Doctor & Rose, mostly Ten II & Rose... but Ten I & Rose is PAINFUL.
Ten II needed her, all right, but so did he.
He won't have to see her wither and decay and die, but she won't be there either to hold his hand and help him against this true nature of his that Davros spoke about.
As difficult as it is for us to admit it, and even if he did it for her own good, he just... pushed her away.
He pushed away the only one who could have saved him from his loneliness and his rising darkness.
Now, I can't see him as Rose's Doctor anymore.
He's River's (OMG...)... just wait for him snapping his fingers at his oldest friend (the tardis) and staring down at armies in stead of joking and running away...
He's the future Valeyard.
And this breaks my heart. (Because I still and will always love him)

[amyo67.livejournal.com]

Your head is so busy. Well, just know that I am here for you and if you need me to beta anything, just send it on over. I agree with sunny.

[amberfocus.livejournal.com]

I do know. Thanks. It has been so helpful having you as a backup beta and I really appreciate it.

Re: It still hurts

[amberfocus.livejournal.com]

That's what my story Sacrifice is going to be about. Explaining some of the reason he leaves her behind. I want to give it more meaning, explain a reason that my mind can hold onto and say yes, yes that's why and I understand if he'd do it for this reason, sort of thing.