Just a General, Rambly, Updatey Sort of Thing

[amberfocus]

Well.  I don't post much anymore, do I?  I dunno what's up with that.  I guess I'm just sort of in this limbo place right now.  Also LJ is being stupid and screwing with the formatting so I apologize if there are no paragraph breaks or really big ones.  I'm trying to compensate.
 
I'm walking without crutches and for the most part without the cane.  I'm just not walking very far because it still hurts.  My knee is quite wobbly.  Not so much that I think I'm going to fall, but enough so that I sway a bit.  It's getting stronger.  The exercises are helping with that.  But I won't be running any marathons for a long time yet.  I know it's only been two weeks post surgery, but I was hoping to be home by now.  I was hoping to be spending more time upright and that my knee wouldn't still be swollen.  It's gone down a great deal, but not so much that I don't have to keep it up.  I think I've gone through more ice in the past two weeks than I have in the entire summer and we had a ridiculously hot one, too. I'm finally off the narcotics and just taking 800 mg of Ibuprofen yesterday and today.  I still have several pills left, but it makes me so foggy I'm just putting up with the pain now and cutting the edge off it instead. 

I like having my brain back.  I've written a bit, but not as much as I'd like.  I've got 1000 words on the next chapter of Body Language and I wrote about 800 words on Tumbles, even though I don't think that's really going anywhere at the moment.  I've been thinking out a fair bit of plotting for Stars as well.  My drive to write, though, is mysteriously absent.  I was hoping, with all the time I have to spend in bed, I'd be writing like a fiend, but I'm just not.  I hate not having that drive.  I don't even think it's that I'm losing interest.  I just so often don't feel like it, is all. I finished my read through of A Sky Without Zeppelins.  I have to say...there's really a lot of smut in that fic.  I mean, a lot.  I mean, I could have cut five chapters worth of smut out of that fic without affecting the story and still had A LOT of smut left.  Quite possibly ten.  I mean, seriously.  Hmm.  I seem to have quite taken to the words "I mean."

I haven't done any Christmas shopping this year.  I'm in a bit of a mood about Christmas.  I pretty much want it to just go away and come back around February when it's a more convenient time.  This is totally unlike me, but I don't even care.  Chris has ordered some stuff online that hopefully will arrive before Christmas but probably won't.  The kids know everything will be late this year anyway.  Although Chris will get in early on the 24th so he could go do some shopping with them.  It's not like they won't get stuff from everyone else, so I don't feel too bad about being so bah humbuggy this year.
 

I've been mainlining episodes of The Dead Zone.  Anthony Michael Hall really grew up to be very good looking and he was always an amazing actor, even as a kid.  And the show is so well-cast with such brilliant acting.  Once in a while the episodes get kind of dodgy, but for the most part they've been very well-written.  I don't even care about the fact that I'm watching them with Chinese subtitles.  They're actually less distracting than the Portuguese ones.  I wonder if anyone's ever done a crossover between this show and Doctor Who.  I'd love to see that.  
 

Not much else to tell.  I'm bored with being in recovery from surgery and tired of not being able to live a real life right now.  I need fluff.  I'm finding a bit, but there seems to be a real lack of any DW stories right now.  Fortunately most of what is being posted is fluff.  Still, I wish there was more.

Comments

[crimedoc1.livejournal.com]

*grin*

Sorry you are feeling so bah humbuggish right now - I hope the new year will cheer you up a bit. As for Zeppelins having a lot of smut... well, yeah it does. So? Trust me, NO ONE is complaining! It's just such goooooood smut, you see. ;-)

As for Dead Zone, your wish is my command. I distinctly remembered reading a DW/Dead Zone crossover and have just dug through the bowels of Teaspoon to find it for you. Voila!

http://www.whofic.com/viewstory.php?sid=7559

*huggies*

[crimedoc1.livejournal.com]

And I have no idea why *grin* is at the top of my post above - it was supposed to be down by where I found you the crossover.

The joys of LiveJournal.

[amyo67.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry about the bah humbugs. I was glad to see your post though. I know you haven't felt much like it, but I miss our chats and your posts. But I understand what you're feeling.

*gives you a big hug*

I hope you feel better soon.
My thoughts are always with you.

[juliet316]

The formatting screw-ups seem to only be affecting Rich Text Editor so far (*knocks on wood*). If you do posts in the HTML tab the formatting comes out fine. Pain in the butt to do manually, but it's a good trade - off for paragraph breaks.

Hope you feel better soon.

[mkejenkins.livejournal.com]

*huggles*

Glad to hear you're on the road to recovery, sweetie. Hope you're feeling even better soon.

[irishlullaby.livejournal.com]

I'm writing some fluff... if I could just get around to TYPING it

[teikachikata.livejournal.com]

I hope your knee continues to improve though I think it's odd that it is still swollen. I had injured my knee several years ago and the doctor(almost did uppercase there) had to drain the fluid off. Sounds gross and cringe-worthy but it did the trick.

I can understand your bah humbug mood but hopefully you'll be back to normal before long.

Feel better soon.

[ageless-aislynn.livejournal.com]

First of all... *big hugs* I definitely know that feeling when the drive to write just mysteriously leaves you. :S That's what derailed me earlier this year and it's something that's really hard to overcome sometimes. Bottom line, I think (for me, at least) it was just a matter of depression over things in real life and it just drained all of the joy I had for my fannish things like writing and vidding. So I can definitely empathize with how you're feeling. *more hugs*

Hopefully, though, as you're continuing through your recovery, that sort of apathetic fog will lift as well and you'll find yourself feeling excited about writing again and it can get back to being something that brings you joy again! ♥!

Oh, I loved Dead Zone! AMH really did a fantastic job as Johnny! I'm so glad you're enjoying it, even with the subtitles! ;)

*even more hugs for the road* Take care and feel better soon, hon! ♥♥♥

[amberfocus.livejournal.com]

Ah, that was an interesting story. Thanks for finding it for me. Yeah, I know no one was actually complaining about the smut...apparently you all quite like it. *grins*

[amberfocus.livejournal.com]

I'm feeling much better now, fortunately. I miss you, too. Most of the time I have been falling asleep around seven at night, though. So I'm just not going onto chat at all. I sleep a lot more right now.

[amberfocus.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I'm just too lazy right now to use html. LJ did finally fix it and edited the entry and now it's not one giant wall of text. Thank you. I do feel better now. Was having a bad week but it's gotten better.

[amberfocus.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

[amberfocus.livejournal.com]

And very good fluff it was!

[amberfocus.livejournal.com]

Thanks. Well, the Doctor said there would be residual swelling for about three weeks, so I guess it's fairly normal. It's not horribly bad, just there. I've had fluid drained off a couple times when I first hurt it, but they don't like to do that post-surgery unless the swelling is not going down at all.

I am feeling better now. I was having a bad few days and just needed to whine.

[amberfocus.livejournal.com]

Thank you, honey. Apparently this time the big old whine about it did the trick. I've written nearly 3000 words in the past 24 hours. I hope the muse and the drive stick around.

Isn't DZ a good show? Just really, really good.